Those of you who know me well, know that in 1998

I began to pray that God would show me truth. Not the truth about something, but truth. “God, what is truth?” I prayed. Within one month I had to amend that prayer because the first truth He showed me was that God’s truth and man’s truth are not the same. I began to pray, “God show me Your truth.” Over these last 14 years He has revealed 37 spiritual truths to me. Yesterday He revealed the 38th. I wanted to share it with you to encourage you. This is what it is . . . 

What I have perceived as trials and difficulties are really opportunities He has orchestrated for me to faith into Him, so His truth can become my truth. 

He revealed to me that all the difficulties and trials that He has allowed into my life were really opportunities that He had orchestrated so I could faith into Him. To believe that He is able. That His Word is true. That if I would just believe Him He would give me experiences with Him that would remove all doubt that He is who He says He is. Every tragedy, hardship and heartache were sprinkled into my life as seeds for a miracle He wanted to perform . . .  if I would only let Him. But I never saw them that way. I saw them as proof that He is not who He says He is, that He does not give power to the weak, He will not supply all my needs and victory is not mine through Christ. 

Look at the deception. He wanted to give me life experiences that would make those  truths, my truth. He wanted to integrate into my being, through actual experiences with Him, that in all those things I am more than a conqueror. That the Lord my God is in my midst, a mighty one who will save; He will rejoice over Me with gladness; He will quiet me by His love, He will never fail me. But instead, I believed the lie. That He is not who He says He is. I believed the Enemy of my soul that I could not be sure God is trustworthy and faithful. It seemed far safer to deal with the difficulties of this life myself. And so I did. And in doing that I put the very mechanism that God had ordained to allow Him to truly become my deliverer, my shield and my refuge in times of trouble, into the hands of Satan.  

I used my natural mind and abilities (my flesh) to fight what was really a spiritual battle. And so of course I was defeated every time. And that became my life experience. That became my truth. Got is not trustworthy and faithful. And that lie perpetuated itself with every new challenge. Then yesterday my life changed. 

An issue I  had tried to deal with for over a year returned with a vengeance. It devastated me. I finally gave up. I was completely and totally defeated. I had no where to go. So I went to Him. Yes, I am sorry to say that He was my last choice. Oh, I’d taken the problem to Him in the past, but because in my heart I really didn’t believe or trust Him, and He didn’t handle it like I thought He should have, I quite quickly took it back to solve on my  own. But this time I was face-to-face with myself and I found I was lacking. I really cried out to Him. “Help me.” Just two words. And that was enough. The seed that I saw as heartache and devastation took root and blossomed into the miracle that He had wanted to perform in my life all that time. He healed my heart, bound my wounds and restored my peace. Just like He says He will. And that experience with Him made His truth, My truth.

 I’m sharing this with you because I hope it will encourage you to look at that deep tragedy, that crushing hardship and that devastating heartache in your life as the seed of a miracle that God wants to perform. Faith into Him. He is who He says He is. This is why He said we can rejoice in our trials. They are only trials in our natural mind, designed to be experienced in this natural world and defeat us. But for those who choose to walk in spirit and in truth they are seeds of miracles whose fruit will be the gifts and promises of God.  

This is the truth. Let Him make it your truth.

Please add your words for the journey

  1. Thank you so very much, Nikki for sharing this with us. It touches me deeply!
    I am encouraged to faith in Him and forskake my ways of doing things.
    Rebecca Cohen

  2. MaryAnn Frerichs says

    Those are words we all need to hear. At least I know I do.

  3. Mary Allen says

    Finished “The Next Target” yesterday. Suspenseful and surprising and informative. thank you. This post is what I’ve been studying in Lamentations 3 all last week. You are a blessing Nikki

  4. You said “Yes, I am sorry to say that He was my last choice.” Oh, Nikki, you have company in that department. I’m always trying to solve problems my way, then, when all else fails, I turn to God. What amazing things would happen if I’d seek Him first!

  5. I’m so glad you all stopped by to comment. It’s the only way I know if someone was helped by what I had to say. If we share our experiences I think it makes the journey a little easier. Love and blessings to you all.

  6. David Toohey says

    Very bold post, thanks for your honesty and sharing.

  7. Nikki Arana says

    Dave, it is so good to hear from you. Thanks for the encouraging words.

  8. Sandy Smith says

    Nikki, Thank you for the words of wisdom and how you found them. This is a period in my life when I desperatly needed to hear what you had to say.

  9. Sandy, it is so good to hear from you. I’m glad these words blessed you. With no test there is no testimony. God is who He says He is. He will do everything He has promised in His Word. Try to get time alone with Him, faith into Him and receive what He has for you. It is already done. He did it on the cross 2000 years ago. He knew all about your situation when He laid the foundation of the earth. He is in control and He will triumph.

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